Wednesday, August 26, 2009

lets try this again...

I'm angry, and I can't yell, I can't curse the one I'm angry at, because I don't know who I am angry at. I've asked myself a million times since this happened, "what did I do, whats wrong with me, why did this happen?" I thought, at first, when all my family was around that I could make it through this, but now I'm not sure. I thought I could say, God needed her more. 

Me? This isn't suppose to happen to me, to us...

I've been paralyzed, so quiet, talking to God. Praying for strength, begging for him to listen. I hope the strength I seek will come in time, but how could I possibly go on without this baby, my angel, someone I loved before ever seeing...

If it is Gods will that we have a family, our children will know about her, they will know that they have an angel looking down. 

Please Lord, I pray to you, give me strength
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5 comments:

  1. MellissaAugust 26, 2009 at 9:53 AM

    I am so sorry Sarah. My heart aches for you. Check out www.aplacetoremember.com they have loads of wonderful resources for grieving parents. You are not alone. I know that doesn't help, and I don't know your pain. But do know that you are being prayed for.

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  2. SarahAugust 26, 2009 at 11:43 AM

    Thank you so much Mellissa
    That's all we can do right now is pray, thank you

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  3. UnknownAugust 26, 2009 at 2:24 PM

    *hug*

    I am so sorry this has happened. My only advice is to let it all out, give it all to God, and maybe one day He can show you His plan, but until then, you must just have faith that He loves you, your family, your baby, and He is with you always and forever.

    *hug*

    Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. If you want to get together and talk or anything, just let me know.

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  4. SarahAugust 26, 2009 at 3:15 PM

    Thank you so very much Toni, I'm trying to take it one step out of time, and honestly, its beginning to feel like learning to live again.

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  5. UnknownAugust 28, 2009 at 3:18 AM

    Its definitly about learning to live again.

    *hug*

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