blessed

There is plenty of material on losing a baby, but I can't seem to find much on my current situation.

Ladies, we are pregnant!!

I never expected it to happen just like that, but it did, and we are truly blessed, but I have many MANY MANY fears, it's so very scary to me now, and I'm hoping it does not over shadow my excitement. 

::Sigh::

A living human being is in my belly... 

:)

and I pray every evening, that I am able to protect this little one...

that we are able :)

THere aren't may words I can say at this point, I'm in bliss

and that is hard to articulate in words...

I wait, I watch

Nothing yet, no monthly visitor!!

I took a pregnancy test, and the results were not clear, so I've made an appointment with the Gyno for next week, in the mean time, I'm working on a few things :)

I've been searching for a desk job, maybe a receptionist. I'm sick of coming home sore, with blisters on my feet. I control a stock room, and with that comes responsibilities that frankly I don't care to control any longer. I have two interviews, 1) a dentist office downtown, I believe the dentist is McDaniel, and 2) at a chiropractor close to the house. I will lose my benefits if I quite, but the two full time jobs that I'm interviewing for have benefits that are available upon hire.

I've fell a little behind on my school work with getting the house fixed up, but I seem to be doing alright, I feel in control, more so than I have in weeks. But things are always on my mind, my angel is always on my mind, I carry so heavily on my heart...

Things are changing, we are changing, and it's a good thing...

more to come

Late...=)

Where are you monthly visitor?

I missed my period for the month of October!
It could mean a good thing, I have not been taking my pills. The husband and I decided we would try and fill these empty rooms. We dwelled in prayer constantly, and really felt that we are in a place [again] that we are ready to add to our family. I'm not going to get to excited, I may just be a bit irregular, but I'll wait until the 7th roles around, when my next "time" is due, and then go to the doctor.

There is a beautiful room down the hall, painted green, of which would love a little inhabitant I do believe =)
we shall see....