stretched

I haven't had a great deal to say lately, I've been so busy trying to pull off being in 100 places at once. I'm not overwhelmed though, I'm taking it easy when I need to. I'm learning :)

I'm meeting with another midwife today, this will be the second one we've spoke with. We'll see how it goes, and pray GOD puts that one person in our path that will help bring our baby into the world :)

Well, time for work!

Thats it!!

I will not rely on history to decide my feelings!!

If I can't be strong in the face of this, a minor something that happens to many women, then how can I possibly be strong for our baby when he/she gets here?

This evening, while I'm layed up in this bed, I'm putting my fears to rest. I will not be crippled by ifs and buts. I'm going to enjoy my pregnancy, tonight I'm going to search for our baby's furniture, and linens, somewhere where our baby can rest it's head at night. And in this next week, I will get DH in there to paint that room!! 

I'm not going to sit around fearful and feeling sorry for myself anymore =)

Braxton Hicks

I went to the emergency room last night...

They said I was having Braxton Hicks contractions due to stress :/

I'm on Bed rest for a few days, and They said to avoid stress, which means no business law class for me tonight, nor am I going to work until Thursday. 

I fear losing this baby more than anything, my entire family has had issues with conceiving and carrying a full term baby, it scares me to the point of avoiding the discussion of names, and nesting. Is that awful and selfish of me? My husband continues to be supportive, and encourage me to get prepared for our little precious. But it would kill me to have a beautiful room, all decorated in yellows and greens, with the drawers stocked, and there be no baby..

I know, GOD willing, this child will be fine. But the thought that something could happen is always in the back of my mind.

Please pray

Beautiful birthing video

This was the most amazing video I've found so far =)

http://childbirthvideo.biz/2008/08/homebirth-video/

Exercise

I've started walking on a regular basis. I get an hour lunch, so normally I eat for 30 and walk for 30, I find it helps me with the my heart burn. 

Heart burn has been the only symptom I've had, I've not been sick, and I've only gained a few pounds, no tender breast... just heart burn. I hope this pregnancy stays easy.

I've been watching ALOT of birthing videos, and have so many question, but I'm just so afraid to ask, I feel a little dumb asking.. I don't know...

Anyways, Thats all for today 

Have a pleasant day all

Something I'm interested in =)

http://www.yourwaterbirth.com/la-bassine-birthing-pools-la-bassine-®-birthing-pool-with-custom-fit-liner-p-4.html

I've thought a lot about investing in a tub for water birth, as we find out more and more about giving birth at home. What do you think? 

One time on TLC, I saw a couple give birth in a flowing river out in the woods, it was insane. I couldn't do that, but it seemed like such a spiritual thing between the two of them. 

Hippies... Gotta love them!

introductions

After reading so many blogs on here, I finally decided to write my own. If nothing else, this will be a good thing to look back on after the baby is born, by the way, I pregnant!! 

I still say I'm pregnant like I didn't know, like no one knows. My husband, Jeremy and I, thought for a while we may not be able to conceive, which makes this time even more joyous.

Its a funny story, we spent almost two years trying to conceive, we weren't in a hurry to have a baby, but we were emotionally and mentally ready. We decided to let the Lord take hold of the timing. Well, a year went by, then many months more, and I decided to go to the doctor to get things checked out. The doctor came back in and said, you should have no problem baring a child, seeing as, you are already 6 weeks pregnant. Well, I bursted out in tears, telling her, thats no funny, and asking if she was serious. Of course she said yes, and I had to tell Jeremy. 

After leaving the doctors, I rushed to the Bank, where Jeremy is an accountant, and went into his office, shutting the door behind me. And he told me, "Oh my Lord, your pregnant!" I shook my head yes, and he grabbed me up and blah blah blah, mooooooshy baby lovey stuff lol.

So here I am, almost 4 months pregnant, and my due date is the 23rd of December. We're both hoping for a home birth